After long waits!!

L.O.V.E. to tell a story

   damn! i missed this blog! hehe... well... ever since that day, I felt negelection, downfall, and sometimes i felt alone. Well.. past is past. we cannot change what had happened.. anyway.. we've been getting along nicely.. i recovered from the pain and misery. hehe.. glad to be back to my old self again!.. hehe.. we cannot say that i don't love her or anything.. is just that.. i like her to be happy.. hehe.. .. (whom am i talkin' about?)...  it's a shame that i were not classmates anymore.. hehe... well.. we can still manage to have a little chat, essort her home, have a laugh. and still remember to keep in touch with each other. hmm... love is just soo amizing, isn't it?

   hmm... well.. the other girl am talking about from my last artilce.. well.. hehe. we bacame good friends and not like the "friend" friend last semester but a friend that tells you something that no one knows.. haha... she's pretty good for my companion. well.. anyway.. i think that everyone who looks at us (this "friend") they think that she's my girlfriend? wat da hell?! hmm.. well.. we cannot say that were just friends. well.. i admit that she's pretty and all but a crush is a crush...  she still doesn't know that i have a crush on her. but... i don't want to say to her i love you. i just want her to be happy and safe.. well.. lets just say i already said i love you to the other girl so i don't want to repeat something that i already gave.

   for me saying sush words like that is a precious thing. well hehe.. i just said my first i love you to her. i cannot take it back and i won't take it back. well we haven't had a good relationship ( i meant that we just keep being friends but not closer "closer" if you know what i mean). for some reason i feel inlove with her and i had tried to be happy with others but it didn't work out..  i left someone that is my "friend" for my real love..

   sorry to say this to you if you had read this article.. thats the reason why i'd left you. i didn't have the guts to tell you this even thou you made me safe and accept me to be happy even thou just for a short while. (to my x)

well anyway.. i felt so wonderful this pass few weeks. well even thou we can't meet each class but I'm happy just knowing that she's their, she liked my christmas gift to her. had a conversation with her in the holidays, and seeing her after class hours. maybe its time to make create a new story that step by step will be cherish for the rest of my life.

MY HEART WAS IMPRISONED BY THE GIRL I LOVED...

 - koko -

Feelin' faint....

Not so long ago... i was feelin' faint 4 some reason... i hate to say this.. but the girl i loved... she just.... well.. you know.... for some reason i felt real depressed for 1 week.... (stupid airhon...)  he's the one who told me those crappy things.... well.. i can't blame him.. it's her decission.. not mine...

Inuman Session...

2 weeks ago, so sad those days.. the girl that i love, i had never talk to her almost a week..(t'ill last friday..)  hmm... she even thought that i was mad at her for some reason... i had some imformation cu'z her bestfreind was my friend... hmm.. well.. we talk and talk about her.. so.. well.. even she was shock about that story... maybe.. just maybe.. i just let my feelin' for her be put aside a little... While in Deep Deprestion.. i always try  my best to smile.. make jokes with my friends.. but deep inside.. i felt left alone...:(

My grade school clsm8 had invited me to his birthday.. well.. it the date is sunday.. i was worried if i'm gonna go to school... hmm.. then i realize something that.... about her...  i never felt soo depressed before... so i stayed upto 10:30pm at his house to drink some alcholic beverages... let's just say i was drunk... hmm.. it so hard for me to walk straight.. it's a good thing that his house is near to ours. i went home drunk.. my head is so heavy.. and my world just go circling around me.. in the morning.. my clsm8 ask me if i'm drunk?... well.. i told her the truth that i was drunk for some reason..

after class (monday)... my groupmates want to use our spare time to do our report due tomorrow....  well.. we were there... but i really don't want to drink anymore... while waiting for others to come.. my barkada ask if they want to drink?... well.. let see.. i don't want to drink.. but.. my conscience can't help it... i'm the one who bought those hard liquors... hmm... we drank and drank those bottles... we didn't realize that we were drunk... (but the fact is.. i was real drunk that tym)... i don't know what was the real effect of alcohol... but i say something to my close friend.. i told her stuff about the girl whom i loved but loved another one... so i felt i want to cry that tym.... i say and say anything about her... without knowing that my barkada is teasing me. .. so i ignore them.. i talk to glaiza bout' those certain thing...after those events.... my depression was slightly washed away by those tears inside... after our work at ate jane's house, i can barely walk straight.. infareness.. i even escort glaiza to recto where her dorm is located..

The next day.. i said that i don't want to drink anymore... but my barkada insist me to join them.. but i couldn't refuse... i was drunk "again" and went home feelin' sleepy.... (well, i remember that i went home that time, but i walk from ate jane's to our house, after that i went cycling a littly bit.. racing with those big trucks... without knowing my self that i was drunk...*)

this is a month that i will remember co'z  so many things happened.. and will happen this month...

for some reason i didn't updated my blog lately... so happy to be back..but so down to be back.. haay...!! why do people lie? is it in our blood?.. why..? i dunno the reason for that... but i think i didn't want this but.. uhh.. let me tell you what happen.

the S.C.H.O.O.L.  

this is a place that every person would met each other.. i met two girls.. i met both of them.. those two girls became my friends.. but one of them became real close to me...  but the the other girl... uhh...  maybe we should go on our seperate ways... but the fact that boys and girls have some feelings that needs to be expressed. well.. actually.. some of those "expression" needs to be realesed.. so that our conscious may be free from the torment of love...

"to the girl (1st)": I'm very sorry if you had read this post.. but someday.. you will know something that may hurt the both of us.. I'm very sorry..  I post this coz' i want this to be a reminder of what should i do if ever i hurt you... i don't want to hurt someone very close to my heart.. please, understand this... i know that god saw me lie to you.. i'm verry sorry.. please.. forgive me...

we live in a world full of lies....i really need to say this to you.. i really do mean it, so... be it.. "i love you"... but why?... maybe i'm just confused... but i'll do my best to correct all those mixed-up things that would let you know the "truth"....

-this is a reminder-

prolonging this epic.. i must say that if i love a girl a really do mean it.. so please.. so be it..

-koko-

hahaha!! yey!! very bored.. dami kc ginagawa kaya ayaw ko muna mag lagay ng entry (in other words... i don't know.. hahahaha)  hmm... so lately.. woah~!!.. 1st day was so.. uhh.. let see.. hehehe.. well.. its nice... yaah!!. hehe.. met several people.... hahah.. very noisy when our 1st day.. hahaha..(dba pag 1st day mahirap tahimik??.. hehe.. kabaligtaran samin eh.. hahaha)

huhuhu... still workin' in my nekubela 2... waaa!!! .. i wanna finish my nxt "masterpiece".... hehe.. so dat uhh.. dunno.. i really haven't thought about dat.. hehe... well.. anywayz.. why am i speaking in english??? :-t

hehe.. well... as my psychology teacher said.. "da human behavior may vairy(wrong spelling ba?)... on the weather".. well.. hehe.. i'm pretty moody when summer.. hahaha!! i hate to much hotness in 2 months.. (it depends.. hehe.. i don't lyk sleeping in a verry hot place...) hmm.. uh... dunno wat to do...  haha... well... uhh... so.. nxt nxt nxt... hyper mowd?... sleep at class mowd?... or YM mowd?.. hahaha!! def. YM mowd!=))

hmm.. let see.. my agenda for this yr:

1. work on nekubela 2
2. try-out for the UAAP..(hahaha!! asaness)
3. sleep during biology cls...
4. sleep during NSTP cls...hehe

haha.. dunno if i'll do that.. hahaha!! well.. actually.. perhaps their will be another nekubela.. hahaha.. so... so.. sooo!!!!! hahaha.. =))

let me tell you somethin'.. uhh.. people whom you chat always... uh... kc... ung si ka chat kong si jho... uhh.. kc namn.. uhh.. d xa katulad nung nasa ym ko kung makipag usap.. tahimik xa. at very shy (sabi nya d raw xa shy.. eh mahiyain nga sakin eh..) taz... d tulad ng pag kwekwentuhan namin sa ym ang pag uusap namin sa totoong buhay (uhh.. d pa nga kami naguusap ng matino eh... lagi "bc"...hehe) anu pa ba... basta.. hehe. ibang-iba nga xa eh.. nakew!! hahaha.(kung binabasa mo e2 jho.. sorry ha?... kc. uh... hehe.. bahala na.. sorry.. un kc ung nakikita ko eh:P)

hehe.. bat ko naman makakalimutan ang b-day ni Michelle Symaco? hehe. pinangako ko ah.. lalagay ko sa blog ko ung bday mo ah? yan ha?! happy b-day sau! hehe!

well.. anywayz.. bat ba ganito? ngaun lng ulit ako nag post.. hmm.. la tym.. at madalas sira ung blogdrive.. bad3p.... hehe.. cge ok lng yan.. lalagay na lng ako ng deepest thoughts ko ulit(hahaha.. la lng).

Hmm.. weird!! weird!! weird!! hehe!! si cha daw iniiwasan mag OL? ngek! ahihihihi!! .. kakapanibago un ah.. hmm.. teka lng.. ice tea mowd muna.. tapos.. saka ganun. .den. tapos na.. hehe. sorry nga pala kay jho'... d ko nakausap si kate kaninang umaga eh.. hmmp.. sowee talaga .(T____T).... mas weird talaga ung night side foe... hehe... basta! my nakita ako na d dapat banggitin.. as in!.. hehe(kaso binanggit ko na eh)...

HAPPY B-day to Michelle Symaco

Night side foe

I was a boy who wounds someone,

I was prolonging your life until it last,

I was their when you needed me the most,

But I was thorn by you body till death,

Courage helps me to seek through this twisted faith,

But the dark kept me; knowing I shed tears before.

It reminds me to be a soul, yet abstract.

She remains as my angel, yet my evil.

Laughing, crying until a twist of faith.

Seeing you clear was a big mistake.

Eagerly waited to seek through my dreams,

But alas! I was doomed by this endless death.

Blood rush through my vain, wanting to take life.

Blood gave me a gift, to feed on life itself.

But a dream was just a dream.

But my dream was not a dream.

Vague it might sounds, but clarity was profound,

Irony it must be and death you may seek.

I was afraid to see you cry, and yet;

I am the one who let you die…

hmm.. nice weather nga pala kahapon.. hehe.. natupad wish ko para sakanya!! hik hik.. hope ko lng na nag enjoy xa kahapon ^^..

hmmp.. haha!! kakaadik e2ng limewire!! haha!! buong araw Download download ng KALOKOHAN~!! hahaha!! lupet!! masculados eh.. ganda.. "MACHO PAPA" ...  hahaha!! kakaloko.. well.. eto na bagong pang senti music...^^ lupet nga .. ganda at pedeng pang senti.. hahaha!! ^______^

nice weather!! yey!! hehe..thx po lord tinupad nyo wish ko! hek hek! ... hehe.. kc namn eh.. sino ba naman gus2 mag... ******** kpag umuulan?... or malamig.. hahaha!! :P well.. nice day... pero my nangyari sa isa kong ka YM eh... dunno wat really happen... hmmm.. ok lng yan.. don't be blue.. ^_____^

gara talaga!! simula pa kahapon ala parin cable!! d tuloy ako makapanood ng anime!! (sh*t na karma ako!! ) hahaha... saya nga pala ng *boot warz* kahapon!! hik! hik! hik!! .. haha!! lugi ako.. tatlo kalaban ko sa boot eh... hahaha!! tago muna sa isang account.. hehe.. buti na lng after 5 mins sieze fire na!! hahaha!...  teka lng... lufet parin.. kakaloko.. teka.. may nakakakilala ba sa "Siakol"?....ganda rin ng kanta nila ....hehe!! hmmp! puro DL DL DL DL!! hehe.. kakatamad kc mag type ng english eh.. d pa ako inspired..!! hahaha!!

teka.. biyaheng impyerno!! ganda talaga!! walang kupas!! hehehe.. (medyo kupas na eh).. hahaha!!

nice day.. sana magpatuloy pa .. hik hik!! teka.. balik kaya ako sa senti musics... hahaaha!! kakaloko senti musics!!.. hek hek!! saya kahapon!! hahaha!! tutuloy ko kaya nekubela ko.. hehe.. may reader ako eh:P... tatapusin ko na para masatisfy ang tao!! hahaha!! nekubela nekubela!! fak!!! hahahaha!! hik hik..... teka..gabi nga lng pala ako gumagawa ng nekubela noh?... ehehehe.. cge mamayang madalim at walang tao... at 3 am!! yey!!! hanggang d2 na lng (^____________^)

WooohoOO!!!  nothing special..

yey!! i lost another post.. recently.. i my PC just gone hairwire.. dunno what happen but it bothers me.. maybe a CPU is not a real nice place for a rat to stay inside.. hmmm.. but where i should put "dodi"?(my pet rat! hahaha)... dunno.. maybe i'll put him just like the other rats i used to love in a plastic bag..(and throw it in the ever CLEAN pasig river.. or flush him alive..*but our toilet is broken, how can i flush him?*)

well anyways... today was pretty sweet.. (maybe i spelled pretty wrong? hmmp)  .. let see... i woke up 11am.. (sleep late.. .very late.. 5am maybe...) hmm.. den i went to FEU.. hehehe.. happy FEU!! hahahA .. coz i met a CLONE their.. our GTO (gay Teacher Oudulio) hahaha!! the photographer their was not a man.. but a *she-Man*... hahaha~! but this photographer was no Mang Dominic... hahaha!!  "mataray ung bakla eh" hahaha!! ok lng..  at least i found another gay teacher!! hahaha!! very rare for me to see gay teachers..(their something with gay teachers... they're more fun rather than regular non homo- teachers.. hmm)

hahaha.. wishing that it would never rain and hope that its sunny! (I don't want to ruin a beautiful day for my baby sis!! hehehe.. my baby sis and her family's goin' out swimming tommorow.. so i wish that it would be a great sunny day tommorow!! ^^)

THE TAGALOG Version...

hahaha!! sweet!! pede na ako magtagalog dito.. amf!! hirap mag ingles!! hahaha!!  ala naman maxadong nangyari.. kaso ok lng.. hahahhaha!! saya na FEU ngaun!! kamukhang kamukha nya talaga si GTO!!! hahahaha!! ok nga un eh.. baka pede ko xang pag3pan!! hahaha *jowk!! ayaw ko pang makikout!! hahah! d pa nga nagsisimula ung klase eh!! kick out of the year agad...

hmm.. meron lng  ako napansing mga weird "thing" na nangyari... si cha ... ewan ko ba..  si jhoanna naman... ala daw sa mood mag type.. tinatamad daw eh; tapos si  *toooooot!! hahahaha!! nag pa view ng webcam.. ok lng!! hahaha!! kakabaliw moments!! hehehe!~! grabe!! hehe .... tapos ung # fan ko *daw*... hmm.. weird xa ngaun.. d ko alam kung bakit.. nakabenta ba xa ng sapatos ngaun? hahaha!! *jowk..:P

ok lng e2ng araw na e2.. haha!! may buddy moments ngaun.. kami ni regie.. hhahaha!! la lng.. may sinabi ako .... may sinabi xa... may alam ako... may alam na xa... hahaha!! tapos... gugutom  ata ako d2... kakatamad kc mag type ng ingles eh.. kaylangan aus ung *Grammar* ewan ko ba.. na troma ata ako ky Ms. mendoza at butiki queen eh.. hahaha... dunno.. pero ... feel ko pag marami akong i tatayp na ingles feel ko babatukan na ako ni ms. mendoza dahil daming maling grammars!! hahaha

soo... medyo busy lagi ako!! (walanghiyang LAYOUT yan!) buong araw buong gabi.. LAYOut Layout layOUT!! kakainis!! haha!! well.. gus2 ko talaga gumada ung blog ko eh... haha!! stick muna ako d2 sa layout na dinawnload ko.. pero ganda naman sa paningin eh.. blue.. fave color ko!! pampakalma ng pakiramdam ^^....

bad3p na layout!! ahahaha!! teka.. baguhin ko kaya.. la na kc ako load pang Internet eh.... *(walang regalo nung b-day ko(T_________T) )*..

Ouyasumi Nasai!! hahaha (si regie nanibago sa word na e2 kahit alam nya ung ibigsabihin na e2... hahaha! lam mo na

Ouyasumi nasai + Nikko (insomniac)= Undefined... hehehe.. ok ba?! error talaga lumalabas eh...)

feel crappy.. i lost another post!! (T______T) plz find them...

anywayz.. i decided to make my post.. *tagalog translated*... para masaya.. kaya para sa ibang readers na d nakakabasa n2ng sinasabi ko.. asa ka na lng pre..(trans: my lost post.. its gone!!)

So anu na? bat ba ganun? sorry talaga kung d ko na na uupdate e2ng blog ko!! bad3p na pop-ups!! lagi na lng!! ~X(.pop-ups must die!!)... haha!! nawalan nanaman kc ako ng post eh.. shet!! nobela na un eh....  hmmp! ano ba anu ba.. ano ba meron ngaun?? hmmp.... si *ice Tea* nga pala. .d nag pakita ngaung araw na e2... hmm.. really miss her..  hmmp.. sana ligtas sya at masaya....(trans: ice tea wasn't der..)

well... its kinda good day for me.. hahaha!! happy ako pag umuulan... kahit may bubong na invisible.. saya parin... malamig at sarap matulog eh... ika nga... tulo laway ng intsik pag nasarapan ng tulog eh (trans:it's raining dogz.. sorry.. i don't lyk catz..hehehe)... pano na ne2... hahaha! mizz ko na post ko.. d man lng nag babay or sumulat.. kakaaasar talaga!! post ko.. san ka na?!?(trans: i was hungry so i ate my shoe..)

hmm... great day talaga!! cute "daw" ng bro ko sa YM.. hahaha!! pix nya kc gamit ko eh... hahaha!! to tell you da trut... hahaha.. kaya ko ginawa pix ng kapatid ko un... kc... hahaaha!! minsan status ko *wala po d2 si kuya nikko... si kyle po e2...* hahahaha!!(trans: i ate my brothers shirt;... sorry. i was hungry eh..) Marami rami na rin ung nabiktima ko ng ganya... kaso.. si jhoanna.. hahaha!! matilino maxado.. sabi nga nya sakin *meron bang 7 yrs old na bilis mag tayp?* hahah!! nayari ako dun ah... hehehehe(infareness.. sabi nya kyut daw ng bro ko.. hahhaha)... amf agaw eksena bro ko sa ym!! hahaha(trans: he return the favor... he ate my homework...)

hmm... anu ba meron.. e2ng nakaraang araw.. super kulit ng ebneng....  hahaha!!  status ko ba naman ung bro ko raw gumagamit... hahah!! dami victims!!(trans: usually i ate a lot of ice tea w/ rice) woohoOO!! hahaha!! tapos... dami rin nag sabi "cute ng pix mo" (note: bro ko ung nasa pix..) hmmp! bad3p! agaw eksena!! tae!! hahaha!!...  (trans: ghost was here...)

i really missed someone specially today.. i really  felt lonely.. coz... she ussually onlyn..*(wookking ng ina!! straight english!! hahaha!!)

infarenss... si jho nag swimming ngaun.. sabi ko nga sakanya swim na lng xa sa malabon.. hahaha!! libre pa tubig dun.. woohooOooo!! hahaha!!(trans: lets go swimming in pasig river... cleanest river on earth!! REALLY!!!) swim ka na lng sa baha.. kaso susyal xa eh.. gus2 nya laguna (gus2 nya bang mag swim sa baha ng laguna? waw susyal!! hahaha) hmm.. anywaiz...  ok lng .. ung healthy vitamins din naman nid mag break...^^(trans: still eating my shoe...)

ang polar hands talaga ang nagwawagi sa pag saing sa tinapay...

hmmp..ganda yakitate!! kakaasar!! hahahaha!! naiinis ako kc d ko matikman ung tinapay na ginagawa nila!! tinapay na pipilipitin ka ng 950 degrees... ewan ko ba!! weird pero masaya!!..  2days has pass.. haha!! unang araw talo sa mga laro.. ikalawang araw swerte sa laro!! hehehe!! nanalo na.. libre laro pa!! wahahahaha!! un lng.. summary na lng. .heheh(Trans: i summarized it... hurray!!!)

 I MISS YOU POST>>> WER EVER U R... sana makauwi ka na d2.. (T______T)

Just another thing...

haha... after the b-day..(well.. its kinda boring and no gifts..!! *(T____T)* )i just want to post a one piece music vid..*(its kinda wierd.. the song is from naruto... well...  the story frame still the same.. they are all fightin for their dreams!! )!! haha!! *asteeg nga eh... *

Fighting dreamers...

We are Fighting Dreamers Takami wo mezashite
Fighting Dreamers Narifuri kamawazu
Fighting Dreamers Shinjiru ga mama ni
Oli Oli Oli Oh-! Just go my way!

Right here Right now (Bang!)
Buppanase Like a dangan LINER!
Right here Right now (Burn!)
Buttakitteku ze Get the fire!

Right here Right now (Bang!)
Buppanase Like a dangan LINER!
Right here Right now (Burn!)

Kewashii shura no michi no naka Hito no chizu wo hirogete doko e yuku?
Gokusaishoku no karasu ga Sore wo ubaitotte yaburisuteta

Saa kokoro no me Mihiraite Shika to ima wo mikiwamero! (Yeah!)
Ushinau mono nante nai sa Iza mairou!

We are Fighting Dreamers Takami wo mezashite
Fighting Dreamers Narifuri kamawazu
Fighting Dreamers Shinjiru ga mama ni
Oli Oli Oli Oh-! Just go my way!

Right here Right now (Bang!)
Buppanase Like a dangan LINER!
Right here Right now (Burn!)

Oto wo tatezu shinobiyoru kage ga Itsumo bokura wo madowaseru
Yuugenjikkou Ooki na kaze ga Uneri wo agete fukiareru

Kazashita surudoi katana de Onore no asu Kirihirake! (Yeah!)
Hoshou nante Doko ni mo nai sa Naa Sou daro!?

We are Fighting Dreamers Takami wo mezashite
Fighting Dreamers Narifuri kamawazu
Fighting Dreamers Shinjiru ga mama ni
Oli Oli Oli Oh-! Just go my way!

Right here Right now (Bang!)
Buppanase Like a dangan LINER!
Right here Right now (Burn!)
Buttakitteku ze Get the fire!
Right here Right now (Bang!)
Buppanase Like a dangan LINER!
Right here Right now (Burn!)
Buttakitteku ze Get the fire!

We are Fighting Dreamers Kono nakama-tachi to
Fighting Dreamers Subete wo makikomi
Fighting Dreamers Kokorozashi Takaku
Oli Oli Oli Oh-!

We are Fighting Dreamers Takami wo mezashite
Fighting Dreamers Narifuri kamawazu
Fighting Dreamers Shinjiru ga mama ni
Oli Oli Oli Oh-! Just go my way!

(Don't forget your first impulse ever)
(Let's keep your adventurous ever)

Right here Right now (Bang!)
Buppanase Like a dangan LINER!
Right here Right now (Burn!)
Buttakitteku ze Get the fire!
Right here Right now (Bang!)
Buppanase Like a dangan LINER!
Right here Right now (Burn!)
Buttakitteku ze Get the fire!

actually... hahaha!! i didn't sleep since yesterday.. maybe later sleepy mowd ako!! hahaha!! hehe... geh*